Happy birthday Delilah Evangeline. You continue to be an unparalled force of nature in my life and the driving influence behind all that i have learned and accomplished these last six years.
LOVE – All of this starts and ends with love. If you strip everything down, I do what I do because its a way to honor my love for you and to make sure that love is known to others who never have chance to meet you.
LIGHT – You are my sun and my moon, the guidance in times of joy and places of darkness. I am always captivated by the way little coincidences don’t seem so coincidental anymore when I look at the path I’ve been navigating since you left.
STRENGTH – I continue to find strength in you and have been able to provide strength to others who need it to endure overwhelming heartbreak.
PURPOSE – I can’t say (and never will) that there was a purpose for you dying, not in a real way. I mean, there is a logical medical reason, but there is not a universal acceptance that will make sense that can explain reasoning for the loss of one so wanted, and so loved. Awful things happen to those who never deserved it, and that has been one of the most difficult things to wrap my head around as I searched for an explanation. But my experience with grief and loss has opened up a world of intriguing information and passion that I would likely not have found otherwise. You are behind everything I do; sometimes in a very lucid way, and sometimes so subtly that I don’t realize it until in hindsight.
It’s these reasons that I started the Tangerine Owl Project in your memory. Its for these reasons that it continues to evolve, because little girl, you are the essence of it all. Sharing you with the world is an honor and a privilege that I am thankful for every moment.
With love, always.