I saw this quote today and it really struck me.
‘I stopped telling myself that I’m lost. I”m not. I’m on a road with no destination, I’m just driving with hope that I’ll find a place that I like and I’ll stay there. I’m not lost. I’m on my way.”
There have been many times where I’ve felt lost, but never as much as after the death of our daughter. There is something about the way these words are laid out to take on so many different meanings that makes it worth putting out there to think about.
Here’s my interpretation: It’s shockingly reminiscent of the journey that we take through loss/grief. At first it seems like we’re in denial…. ‘I’m not lost…’ I just don’t know where I’m going yet…. Then the journey becomes a search for healing “I’m trying to find somewhere I’ll like”. Once we’ve found that place of healing we’ll stay there (one might call that acceptance), and then the final line: “I’m not lost. I’m on my way” is the turn around of coming out of the grief and starting to rebuild their world.
In another interpretation, one may look at this simply as a positive re-framing of perspective. When you find that you are at peace with being “lost”, you then aren’t lost anymore, because there is no longer a need for a specific destination. So changing your own view is a way to move forward and stop feeling so stuck.
I struggle with this in life. A planner by nature I like to have a plan and I like to see the road ahead of me on how to get to the destination. That’s not to say that I always have a rigid unadjustable view, but I do want a general road-map (in sticking with the driving metaphors …) I want to know where I’m going and how to get there. In my head, I’ve figured out the directions. Obviously when detours come along it really messes me up because I’m type A like that. Going back to the words in this quote, when detours are thrown at you, and you begin to look at it that you’re on your way to the place you’ll like, it’s a lot less ominous. Even when you don’t know how to get there, and sometimes that is the best way to take the journey.
How would you interpret these words?